Ya know how you can know someone for a really long time and they're just a nice person and then they change kinda for the worse. Not that they don't care but they don't care nearly as much as they used to and they care about different things.  And then, after another long while you get a glimse of who they used to be. Something that you've been waiting for for a long long time and you grab onto it and hold it for dear life....and it still slips through your fingers and you're right back we're you started in the hard place.  And you love this person so much, you want to help them but they don't seem to want helping, in fact they say that you are part of the problem or the whole problem for that matter.

*huff of air* If there was ever a test of faith that was hard for me to pass, this would be it.  Yesterday was especailly hard for some reason. Not sure why, but if I could rate myself on a scale of 1 to 10 on the faithfulness scale I think was a 2 or 3.  Thank God He's much better at this than I ever will be.  He always knows just how to pull out of things like that. Always.

Well I just wanted to "put that on paper" so that I didn't have the feeling of having to say something still bouncing around the nether regions of my brain.

God Bless,
~Kj