Some you will understand what I'm about to say. Most of you probably won't, but that's okay.


About two weeks ago, I had a very rough day working with my dad, and when I say rough I mean nasty, ugly, down-right disgusting. There was little to no interaction between us, but there are some things no one should have to hear or see. I had to pray(silently) the almost the entire time.

Yesterday, I was face with a personal dilemma. This time, my mom touched upon the subject and challenged me to do the thing that I knew I had to do but was really, really, fighting. I had already prayed about the problem, and God hadn't exactly told me what to do. He had presented me with a choice. I could keep going down the road I was on, or I could my problem in His hands and trust Him to make it work.  To be perfectly honest...I was scared. Honest to goodness scared, even though I wouldn' admit it. Cause this was a BIG ISSUE!!!

So we(my mom and I) prayed about it again and then I went and thought about some promises I had made to myself and to God. He sure does know how to get to me sometimes. You see, if I say I'll stand for something I mean to stand for it. No questions asked. Now here I was, turning on that very statement(amoung others)  So, He more or less dared me. Would I keep my promis to Him and trust Him like I said that I did, and would; or would I go my own way. He

He left me with that  thought and I just couldn't get it out of my mind. I couldn't even try to get it out. Eventually, He won. He always sooner or later. I gave it to Him and He took it and replaced my self-imposed worry and fear with a peace that says everything will be okay--no matter what happens. And that feeling bring an unspeakable joy. 
I can't explain this someone who hasn't experienced it. You become so full of joy and peace that it becomes love and you can't help but reach out to other people. You begin to not care how bad it gets, because you know that it'll be okay.  Let it be said that there is a God, Who loves more that humanly imaginable. Who cares so much that it's overwhelming. Every time you try to think about the things that He has done for you that you can't. Because it's impossible for a human mind to get the concept.

I've been a Christian since I was 9, and I am just now being to experience Christianity. I had to open up my mind and heart to God's way. I had to try to see things from His perspective. No, I don't understand it. That's what makes it so great.  If He didn't love me so much He wouldn't help me. Believe me, there are somethings I've done that...yeah. And when I told Him about it, and asked Him to come and fix me, He was already there. He hugged my broken pieces, put me back together and hugged my fixed self.  I was saved...again.

...There is a God. Don't think so? Try coming up with something so original that you didn't need anything that already exists to make it. Still don't think so?  Go hit rock bottom, and then ask Him if He's still there, believe that He'll answer...and see if He doesn't blow you away.  He never disappointed me.


God Bless,
~Kj